12/27/2010

Dear Amelia -

I debated blogging about this but now that some time has passed, I feel its okay. It may be important one day for you to know this.

On December 27th, 2010 @ 5pm, I took a pregnancy test. It was positive. Yay. We were VERY excited. We wanted our kids about 3 years apart. Our due date was 9/9 (Owen's birthday.)

A week later, I started spotting and had cramping. As any freshly pregnant mother would do, I googled it. Everything I read said it was normal to spot lightly. I was worried and even took a pregnancy test sometime during the week. Still positive.

On January 7th, 2011 while at work, I miscarried. I called the doctor right away and left work to pick you up. I didn't know what to do from there so I called Sarah. Sarah offered to watch you while I went to the doctor. The doctor took FOREVER to call me back. Daddy was at work so I just stayed at Sarah's while she played with you.

The doctor finally called me back and suggested I go to the Emergency Room. Daddy picked me up and we headed over. They did blood work and an ultrasound.

I was only 5 weeks along but normal pregnancy hormone levels at 5 weeks is close to 1000, mine was at 16. This confirmed to the doctor that our fear was true.

Time has healed me for the most part. You will have a sibling at some point, we will see when. No hurry.

Anytime you would see me sad, you would give me hugs and kisses and say "all better?" It helped :)

Love,

Mom

Norman Dirks

Dear Amelia -

You love Norman. You follow him around, sit on him, ride him like a horse, say things to him like: "Knock it off Norman", "c'mon Norman" and while I type this you are saying "Good Boy Norman"

Sometimes you say his name perfect but most of the time it comes out like "Morman"

Daddy and I got him as a wedding gift from the Millers. He was our favorite gift, more than the plates, silverware and even cash. He has been a great dog.

This weekend, he snatched some cherrios right out of your bowl. He was showing off for his friends that we were dog sitting. I put him in the dining room and shut the door after giving him a quick swift on the butt. This is very unlike him. When Daddy let him out of the door, he was acting weird. We found out later that he ate all of Raja and Kaia's food. By all, I mean over almost x10 what he normally eats in a day. He was really in the dog house.

He is a good boy and I can't imagine our life without him. He is a special boy. Before you were born, I would crying thinking about how his feelings would be hurt once you got here but I'm not worried. He loves you too.

Love,

Mom

Cousins Weekend!

Dear Amelia -

You had such a fun weekend with Jaxy. You two are so adorable together, it brings a tear to my eye just thinking about it.

Jaxy helped you open a book that came ALL THE WAY from France. Emilie sent you a little french book that you LOVE! Thanks Emilie!

You did lots of running around...

and lots of hugs.

You cried when Pam and Jaxy had to leave for the airport. So did Mommy.

We hope they get to come home soon! Otherwise, we will get to spend 5 days straight with them in Florida in April!

Love,

Mom

Jackson Jude is HOME!

Dear Amelia -

On Monday, we found out Jaxy and Pam were coming home for a long weekend! Yay! Pam asked us to pick them up at the airport and we were happy to do so.

You and I were so excited to see them (sorry for my annoying voice)

Jaxy was a little shy

But by the time it was time to leave them (Glamma's car was at the airport so they took that home) you two were holding hands, running and laughing. Even talking to eachother.

Jaxy - "Blah blah blah blah blah car Yaya?"

Yaya - "Jaxy blah blah blah blah blah"

It was so cute. You are having a sleepover 2 nights over the weekend so there will be plenty of time to catch up!

Love,

Mom

Your first flu

Dear Amelia -

You and I are at home today because you have the flu. It all started yesterday when you were home with Daddy not feeling well. This morning, I got you out of your crib and you threw up. Then you followed me in the bathroom and threw up again. And then later again on the couch. Every time required a hug, even with throw up all over you. Oh well, its worth it.

On Friday, Lyndsey picked you up at daycare and brought you to Mommy's work for a little bit.

Saturday, we went to Ryder's birthday party! We had a great time!

After the party, we came home for a nap until Daddy got home from work. At 6, we went to your Great Uncle Mike's hockey game!

Sunday, we went out to Auby and Doodies for the afternoon. You loved playing with their puppy Tommy!

Hope you feel better tomorrow!

Love,

Mom

Mall of America

Dear Amelia -

I will never forget my first time going to Mall of America. Anner took Molly, Blake, Billy and I. It is the biggest Mall in America, its pretty cool! Both Daddy and I had our after high school graduation party at the MOA. Daddy and I went on a date there once and I got sick after riding on some spinny ride. I've also see my favorite, Kelly Clarkson there more recently with Kellee.

You went with Glamma and Cookie to the MOA on Saturday. You had such a fun time!

Your first rollercoaster

On a horsey!

In a hot air balloon!

You visited with your favorite, BACKYARDIGANS!

And had a hissy when it was time to go.

Thanks Glamma and Cookie for the fun time at the MOA!

Love,

Mom

You know your ABC's. Kind of.

Dear Amelia -

Since you were a baby, we've always sang the ABC's to you. You started catching on to a few letters here and there. While I sang, you would shout out letters like "P!" or "Z!" Even would sing "ME!" and the end.

Lately, you've been singing them to yourself. Its a different version every time. This video cracks me up. I love when you pause in the middle to take a breath.

Our weekend plans: You and I might go shopping at the outlet mall today...if I feel like it. Then, you were invited to a sleepover at Glamma and Cookies. Daddy and I are going to go see a movie at the Hopkins cheap theater. Sunday, we will be soaking up as much football as we (we=Daddy) can since its almost over.

Love,

Mom

PS - Apple hooked me up with a free new phone so now my camera isn't foggy anymore! Thanks Apple!

2011!

Dear Amelia -

I can't believe its 2011! Our New Years Eve was uneventful. Just the way I like it. We rented a movie and made a bed on the floor in the living room and watched it together. Saturday was Amy's 50th birthday, so we went to her party where you were adorable.

Your new favorite thing to do is put on your boots, grab your purse and pretend like you are going to work.

Sorry for the foggy camera but I dropped my phone in the snow and it hasn't recovered yet.

Love,

Mom